Friday, March 31, 2023

Door

There is a door

down a long

white

hallway

lilting ghosts

of linen 

lights

in line

leading lights

from above

drowning

dreamy

down

the long white hall

fits like a glove

down

to the dark door

that waits

for you

infinitely

or until the time

comes

whichever

is

sooner

and we all have

a door

and 

a hall

with white

walls

waiting

and

there

are all of my

creatures

the ones that

have gone

ahead

before

me

and wait

in the white

light

for me

to follow

reunited

again


Friday, March 10, 2023

a brief moment

A brief moment

a flash in my eye and

for a moment

i pause

a lone man staring

from the cold window

of the factory bathroom

late night

snowing

blustering across

the empty lot below

by the graveyard

a car spins through

 the whitewashed pavement

under the lights

and slides in next to another

the lonely car

in the lot

by the graveyard

they sit in silences

these two cars

one of red

and one of blue

so it feels like you

but seems like two

a lovers tryst?

a night cap capped

or old friends

a day trip

and a stashed device

to get one home…

all alone

in the lot beside the graveyard

Sometimes you have to stop

and take in

life

in the

moment

my reflection

also watching itself

in the glass

watching

the empty lot

by the graveyard

a moment cast

in looking glass

a frozen lake

a freezing evening

they called for a storm watch

but mine were 

already here

lately

I am burning

from loss

and failure

failing health

and failing flailing

that writhes

while falling

i’ve never been this close

to the sharp edge calling

and i work with tools

every day

but not this way

a brief repose

a heart not beating

skipping from the 

longing

for a friends soft breathing

that timed with his

each night and day

now gone away

(in the dark

all cats are grey

but he was not)

Now this parking lot

that rests by graveyard

and i am frozen

in this mundane

ask me not

for what i am grieving

just know that love

has gone away

if in the dark

my hopelessnedd breeding

should grow to monsters

so i’d stay away

i’m in the woods

you cannot reach me

i’m in a moment

i’m in the grey

it won’t be long

for life keeps beating

my footsteps will echo 

the path again

but for a moment

i am frozen 

and the storm watch 

comes to fruition

and i can not come out to play

i’m in my feelings

i’m in this darkness

i’m watching strangers

from the distance

by the graveyard

i’m not here

i’m

not ok

grief is sometimes brief

but sometimes lasts forever

and it hits me like a feather

i will never get over this